Everyday I wake up with this fear in my mind
I dread watching my hopes crashing on the floor
The distress of listening to your dilemmas
Every single time we dream together
I want to run and hide, I want to leave you and fly
And yet I stay, because, I hope someday you will be mine.
Why, oh! Why? Why do you have to do this to me?
Don’t you see I am a human with flesh and a thumping heart?
Don’t you feel what I feel?
This longing to be together, to be in love
To see the sunrise with you and read a book we love
I want to whisper my favourite words and poems into your ears
I want to see you smile in the darkness of the night
I want to show you off to the world and scream that you are mine
And just now it feels real, like I am close to having what I want
Like you are falling in love with me, we are sitting right here
Hand in hand, my head on your shoulder, coffee in our hands
Laughing at nothing, I wish I could freeze this moment
Where it feels you are mine and this life is real
This gaiety heart that’s floating into heaven
But I know, I know this won’t last
Tomorrow you are going to have second thoughts
There waits trepidation in the corner of the street
Like a grim reaper following his prey.