How do I tell you that I love you?
That every second of my day is made of your thoughts
When I see a couple cuddling in the bike on a rainy evening
When I see them holding their hands as they walk on the seashore
When I see that lonely girl smiling at her tiny device
That every time my phone beeps I hope it’s you
Do you realize that you make my heart skip a beat?
That just the excitement of seeing your name gives me a heart attack
It lasts so long that it steals my sleep away
I lie on the bed hoping you were by my side
Dreaming of the things we would do
The things we would talk about, what would you whisper in my ears?
When I see a sky full of stars and a bright one among them
I imagine if you ever look up to see the sky and this bright star
And if I follow the opposite side of that star in a straight line
Will I see you? Those beautiful eyes that always seem calm
Like you have all the time in the world to listen to my nonsense
How do I tell you that I want to start a life with you?
That I want to break that hard shell of yours and walk right in
Read your thoughts and the thoughts about those thoughts
That I want to detangle that complicated brain of yours
And tell you to calm down because there is no competition
That you are the best to me and no one can ever beat that
I want to bring the best in you and embrace your imperfections
Make a bundle of your anger and irrationality and hug it tight
Because that’s a part of you too and I would never let that go
That I cannot lose any single piece of you, good or bad
I want all of them only because it belongs to you
I want to confess that I am so greedy and gluttony
That I want you all for myself
How do I tell you that I want my days to begin with you?
That at the end of an exhausted day all I want to do is melt in your arms
Bear your babies and raise them to be just like you
How do I tell you that this is all stuck in my head?
How do I tell you that I rehearse this every day and night?
How do I tell you that if I tell you that if I tell you that I love you, you will be gone?
That I am selfish and want to hug this little wish of mine and never tell you
For I cannot hear you say no, for I cannot bear you leaving me
If this little world of dream and life I built around us and about us will crash
And I cannot see that because I would love to stay happy
For my happiness precedes our life together
Oh! How can I be so cruel to myself?
How can I let you walk right out of my life?
But you were never a part of it. Not again and not ever I will let someone walk around
And break everything I gathered for years like a precious stone
I can never let that happen again.
I can never let someone control my happiness.
But how do I tell you I am desperate to bring you into my life and keep my happiness too?