Everytime I cry I get reminded of what you always tell me, ‘Be brave and strong. You are a brave girl. Just know that there is always good in bad. Your good is about to come. You will pass this. I know you will. So smile, because you look so beautiful when you smile.’
‘Be strong because I am not going to give a good news’, said my dad from the other side of the phone. I gripped my phone tighter waiting for him to give me the not so good news, I assumed!
‘He is dead’ he said quietly after a long pause.
My heart was thumping and I could hear every beat of it loud and clear. There are few things in life you don’t want to believe. You just hope that you wake up the next day and everything is back to what it used to be. These are times you wish your life remains that boring, monotonous one that you have hated most of the time. But reality always stands right next to you by your bed and slaps you as soon as you wake up.
Last year I was going through one of the disastrous phases of my life around this time. Someone very close to my heart, someone who taught me what is love rather how to love boundlessly left this world. He was killed in accident ruthlessly and seconds before that he was talking to me. A best friend, a caretaker, someone I looked upto after my father, someone who made me feel secure after him. He gave me love when I needed it the most, he gave me his shoulder when I wanted one to lean onto. A wonderful singer and a guitarist. Someone who taught how to live a carefree life and how enjoy the little things of life and to overlook the worst in a person. He taught me how to cook 🙂 He was almost like my mother!
Days flew so fast that I cannot believe that I pushed a year without his presence in this world.
I know you are safe and happy in heaven. I just want you to know that you will always be loved and missed. You will always have a special place in my heart.
You are greatly missed.
Thanks to my friends who were with me during this time. I would have shattered if not for you guys! Thank you. You guys are always there when I turn around for help. Love you all 🙂